I hate my dad help i want to beat the **** out of him?

i need someone to talk to. i ****** hate him hes on the ****** couch everyday just staring at the ****** tv with his mouth wide open and drooling like a ****** retard. today he told me to throw out some boxes, i stopped halfway, because my mom told me to come help her out at the store, then i got stressed out by my mom because she couldnt ****** answer a simple question. so i left the store and went back home and i was so ****** stressed out, i got home and my dad says throw away the boxes, and i get ticked off even more. also i have on many occasions thought of ****** murdering him. so anyways i have the iron gym pull up bar, which is that thing where you can hook up a pull up bar to the door, and im trying to get rid of some stress, just by working out really quick. then my dad says while hes on the couch, throw away those boxes. hes been sitting on his *** all day for 3 hours and didnt even do ****, just still watching t.v. ok one thing that we need to get straight first is that, i have always tried to please that mother ******, but i guess early during childhood i came to the conclusion that hes a ****** miserable failure at life. and now that im 17 and turning 18 on may 27 i only even more strongly cling to that fact that hes a miserable ****. he spent 50,000 in stocks made 150,000 then lost all of it on a risky stock. he made a store, in a ****** gay *** ghetto neighborhood, [i honestly dont know what he was thinking, when he built this in a ghetto neighborhood, he spent 300k on it when he could of just bought a ****** house in a nice surburban neighborhood, i dont even know how he could afford it when he was just working at a hearing aid factory making hearing aids. hes a dumbass, the ****** store is a failing business, he knows that and i know that. a good business is always expanding, or somehow improving, but this dumbass doesnt even know how to apply shifts, and employees. he has my mom working down there for 14 hours every day from 830amto830pm. FYI the stores called W%26amp;T market] **** him **** him **** him. he made a ten year mother ****** lie to me. thats whats really pissed me off through my life. he put me in martial arts when i was 5 and i quit just when i was 16. he said that when i become a black belt then he will let me quit martial arts, well i worked for 10 mother ****** years and what do i find out when i become a black belt...i ask him the question hey dad you remember what you said, so can i quit now? then he says no. and ****** yells at me. i wanted to kill him that night. and by god i can, he never should of put me in martial arts cuz i know just where to stab him and to hit him. and how to kill him in one blow, in fact i even read a banned book on how to assasinate people and get away with it. never needed the book. **** him . all i can ask for is that just give me or tell me some way that i can get rid of my stress, and in return i wont kill that ******...and one more thing when he dies i wont ****** visit his grave, ill soil it with my piss.


i dont want to kill him, because i want a ****** successful future. ive read thomas a harris book im ok you're ok. only on chapter 6 right now. all i can hope is that book gives me some kind of edge.


ive worked to mother ****** hard to ruin my whole life right now. but you know what it will be so ****** GODDAM ****** satisying when i piss on his grave. but for now i just want to get rid of my stress until i move out this ****** house. when i get my first island, one of those people that wont be invinted is my dad. i hated my mom too, but shes shown some improvement, and now were at that fine line between **** you and your ok. im planning to major in psychology, because i really mother ****** feel like i should. because im at that im okay your not okay position.****! theres so much more **** i want to get out, but please just give me some kind of better stress relief, i can drive so if i to go some place any place! just tell me.I hate my dad help i want to beat the **** out of him?
Eat lots of chocolate, go for a nice walk, play some video games, listen to some Kenny G. You'll calm down a lot from that.I hate my dad help i want to beat the **** out of him?
Whoa whoa whoa! Calm down! First, you need to sit down and need to talk to him instead of getting mad and stressing out on every little thing he does or says. Please, have a family meeting and talk this thing out. I know one thing that you don't hate your father. You are just frustrated. Frustration is not necessarily hatred. I can help you out with this situation electronically. If sitting and talking doesn't work, then calmly let me know with the situation and I will be more than happy to help you! :)
I detect in your writing an assumption that we can make ourselves happier by ';venting.'; You're not making your situation any better by getting angry or by holding a grudge.





You're planning of majoring in psychology? Good. Who's paying the tuition?
Move out.